Had a great weekend with the parents and sister in St. Louis this last weekend. It was a lot of fun. I lost money at the casino but oh well it was still cool. Is nice to spend time with my mom and dad. I love them a lot. They are getting older. Their 50th anniversary is in October of this year. Time flies MAN. They still get around pretty well. Things have changed somewhat in many things they do. Life is so interesting that way. I love them dearly. Not sure what I'll do when they pass. I'm a momma's boy and always have been. Being the only boy with 5 sisters probably causes that. My mom's a real sweety. Got a lot of my values from her. Didn't really get along well with my dad when I was late teens and twenties. He started changing a lot when grandkids came around and stuff. Some amazing changes and became a totally different man I think. I'm glad. We get along really well now. My sister V went also. It was cool. We get along pretty good.
She's the one with the boyfriend that left her for my other sister that just got a divorce. Strange deal. We had a really really long talk about it this weekend. I still have a lot of built up emotion about all that. Some of it came out in our talk. Really a devistating thing that changes the entire family dynamic. Still trying to figure out how to make it better if it can be done. We'll see I guess.
Work is still so stressful right now. I'm trying not to let it be but things just keep piling up. It seems it's sort of out of control right now and I can't get a good hold of it. I'm usually more in control of things and don't like being in this position. Honestly have thought seriously of just walking away. Walking away from it completely. Walking away from a lot of things. I think some of it's burn out. I know a lot of it is working at a place that no one really gives a shit. Working for an organization that has a tyrant from Spain running it through fear and dictatorship. It's so wierd how these huge companies want to go "GLOBAL" and hire people that aren't even americans to run them. Do they want any jobs left in america at all. These people hate us. OH WELL JEEEZ SORRY. But anyway may have to make some tough decisions.
My little nephew "A", my little namesake is waving. It is so damn cute. He's such a little sweetypie. OMG he's so mellow. He loves his uncle "B" :-) I missed him this weekend but did get to talk with him on the phone over the weekend. He recognizes my voice right off. My sis says he just smiles. He's crawling all over the place. He'll be walking soon. Seeing him and my other neices and nephews running up yelling uncle "B" uncle "B" when I come around just melts my heart. Not sure why they like me so much. I hope I give them some fun back cause they give me a lot. Always have fun with them.
Boomer had a big day today. A day he's been counting down. He kind of just blurted it out tonight when we were talking. It was good to hear. So good to hear. So happy for him. I'm sure it's kind of shocking for him in many ways. Time has a tendancy to get you places that suprise you. Amazing how time flys. "G" and I were talking tonight, we talked about how positive Boomer is. And he really is. For what's happened to him over this last year. Damn. Not sure I would be so positive. But it's great he does. He's so protective of me and what's going on. Really takes me by suprise sometimes. I know some friends watch out for me a lot. "M" threatened Boomer that he better not hurt me. LOL Boomer flat out told me he had not intentions of ever doing that. Good Answer. :-) It amazes me how much he loves me. Not that I question it. Just not used to it I guess. I truely hope I make him happy as he does me. He thinks of me in all the decisions he makes in his life. Is that amazing or what. How could I be so lucky? Is it luck or fate? Was someone watching out for me? Why is this part of my life so good and the rest not so good? Is it all about balance? Do I freaking think about it too much??? LOL Probably.....
Still amazed at all the stuff going on in the south. So many sad stories coming out. So many good ones about people helping others. People being sent all over the USA. People that have lost everything, where will they go? My friend from New Orleans that stayed and had to be evacuated to Oklahoma is ready to return and start cleaning. He is a professor for the college down there and they are trying to get some online classes going. And do mini courses that will only a fraction of the normal length. I think he said starting in December. Man that's a long way off. The devistation is going to be so long term for everything.
12:45am
Just finished talking with a good friend on yahoo. She's an awesome girl. Having some issues right now. Hope she can work them out. :-) Wish I could help. She's so easy to talk with we are pretty comfortable about talking to each other. I like that.
Life's wierd. It's so hard to change things sometimes that really need to be changed. Hard to make decisions that could create or cause changes or trouble. We all do that. We all have things that we "live" with because it's easier just to keep it that way then hassle with change. Lord knows that I want to make some major changes but then that thing about being comfortable and just ok enough to keep it that way and not hassle with a change or totally scared of a change. Life is so peculiar.
Well I should be getting my butt to bed. Wrote more than I thought I was going too. Thank you for listening. Hope all is well out there.
Hugs,
SW
