Feeling of being overwelmed are just driving me crazy right now. So so much going on that I feel I have no control over. I just want to take off and go help those people down south. It's very hard for me to watch the news for very long at all right now. I have a friend from AWC that's down there stranded in his house, he decided to stay and see what happened. I get updates from another friend at awc. He finally got a hold of him yesterday at lunch time and talked to him again last night. Water is at the steps of his home. Last night he waiting to be rescued and taken somewhere else. Seeing those people there thinking that people have deserted them. That's just sad as hell. The baby's and the old people on the streets and interstates with just no where to go. Damn Hard to believe this happens in the USA. Show's you how much in control mother nature actually is. I hope they can get everyone safe and fed soon. I hope my friend finds a safe place to stay.
Work is almost to push me over the edge. I have so much to do and so many people wanting and needing things. Pressure from corporate is just crazy. I'm so sick of it I can't stay a minute longer after time to leave. I go to sleep dreading the next day and wake up feeling pressure. I'm not sure what to do about it right now, hard to think about anything else but keeping it under control. Keeping myself under control.
The friend I talked about that has some health issues is just about to lose it completely. I feel helpless. The doctors don't know what to do. The are trying to find him a specialist. I'm very worried about him. He called tonight and was very upset. With his issues and the hurricane he's just spinning around with it all. His phone died so he had to leave.
So many things right now. Other friends and family issues. Gas prices. It just seems to keep coming.
All in all I'm trying my damnds't to stay positive and not let it bother me. I know my problems are nothing compared to what's going on in the world. I know things for me will get better. Not the same for a lot of people out there.
Several bright things going on too. Seeing people care and concern right now is amazing. Everyone feels the same as I do. Praying for the people that are suffering right now and feelign helpless. We do live in a world with so much care and support for others. Just wish we didn't have to worry about it.
Having Boomer in my life right now is keeping me focused more than anything. He is so supportive and is there for me. I have many friends that are too and I so love that. I feel I'm very lucky. Boomer just really makes it a point to let me know he is there. It's just not in what he says but the way he says it, and the way he doesn't say it. Starting in this as friends just makes for a trust and comfortableness. To be quite honest he makes me feel like no one else ever has. He makes me feel good about myself and about us. He's honest and open about everything. As most of you know. Honesty and trust are probably the most important things for me. He shares everything. I know I have a problem sometimes with holding back. I know I do this from time to time with him even. It's not that I don't trust him with it or anything like that. I have gotten better with him. I just tend to stay away from the shitty things sometimes, sometimes it isn't better for me to talk about stuff. I don't like dishing it out there to others. Also not having someone to talk to about some of the things I have inside has made me do that also. I hope he knows I'm not trying to hide anything at all. This weekend we meet again. I so can't wait to be with him again. I hope the gas prices don't give us too much of a problem. Something that we didn't really budget for but it'll work out. I don't want anything to cause a un-needed hardship. We'll work it out I have no doubts. :-)
Well enough for tonight. Thanks for listening. Take care!!!
Hugs,
SW
